Hey everyone! I’m aware that I haven’t posted anything this week and the reason is that my Greek God had come to meet me! Sorry for not updating my blog but next week will be filled with fun and love as I tell you all about my time with my S.O!
Thanks for reading!
Loads of love
Let your innocence,
Rise like a balloon again,
As your soul is freed.
Today, one of my closest friends told me that my blog is too sad. And I know for a fact that he is right. So for today, here’s a happy post about my best friend. He loves Captain America, so from now on, I’ll be calling him Captain America.
I met Captain America when I was in 11th grade. Honestly speaking, I felt that he was really weird and I wasn’t wrong. Sometimes, in life, you come across people who are always smiling, always seem to be happy, wishing everyone a good day as they go about their life trying to make others happy. That describes my Captain America. There is no one else like him. I don’t remember exactly how we went from being just classmates to best friends but I’m glad that it happened because he has been a friend who has always been by my side.
He is someone who amuses me with his absolute geekiness. His love for superheroes is endless and so is his kind and caring nature. If you met him personally, you’d wonder how an amazing person like him still exists in this cruel, messed up world. But he does. He is the kind of friend you hear about in novels and movies. The kind that loves you no matter what. Who protects you, cares for you, supports you through everything and always somehow manages to make you smile.
I know that this post may seem like a post meant to please my Captain America. I’ll be honest, it is. Because he deserves it. He is one of the strongest supports in my life and I believe that letting him know how much he means to me is the least I could do for him.
So My Captain America, If you’re reading this (and I know you will), just know that I love you very very much. You’re one of the best things that happened to me and I’m glad that you didn’t give up on me. I’m glad you don’t mind that you don’t find me too annoying. And although we’re completely different people, somehow we just manage to fit and make it through the stickiest of situations. You make me smile and laugh and give me hope. Thank you for everything. I love you very, very much!
And for all you people out there, if you have a friend like my Captain America, let them know how much they mean to you. And keep smiling because if there’s one thing I learned from my Captain America, it’s that one smile can change someone’s whole day and maybe even their life!
Lying on your bed, staring at the ceiling.
We’ve all done this. Sometimes almost everyday. We live our life, contemplating our life. We worry. We worry. We worry. Not once giving a thought to the beautiful day awaiting us.
We immerse ourselves in our works and our dreams, trying so hard to make everything fit. We break and we fix ourselves back again, just that we conform. So where along the way, did this happen?
I remember the days I would be happy when I got a balloon. And then almost suddenly, things changed. I wanted more than a balloon. And that’s when my happiness turned sour.
I realized that I need to be happy with what I have. That I need to be happy with the present no matter what it brings because I am running out of time and life’s too short to waste it on things that restrain me.
I need to learn, learn how to be happy again. How to be happy with the small things. How to value the things that are seemingly ordinary but are somehow everything that has to be cherished. I need to learn to smile, and laugh and just live because I’ve suffered enough and cried enough.
We all get so lost in our daily routines and worries that we don’t realize the passing of time. We suffer, dragging ourselves through the days, months and years, eventually realizing that we’re running out of valuable moments. It’s time we begin to make most of the little time we have, make memories and smile some more because in the end, it’s not the money or the promotions that matter but the little moments that make life sweeter.
Knight in shining armor. Is it always that obvious?
We all ask this question to ourselves when in a relationship. Is he really the one?
Almost all our lives, we try finding happiness but eventually we end up settling for someone who doesn’t even deserve us. We are so afraid of being alone that in our journey to find true happiness that we begin to justify putting up with all kinds of crap just so that we won’t have to be alone.
Sad part is, most of the time, we aren’t even aware of what we actually deserve. We don’t realize that we deserve someone who is caring, understanding, loving, respectful, fun, honest, loyal and so on. We deserve someone who knows exactly when to be chivalrous, someone who knows when to bring out the chocolates, someone who knows what to say and when. You deserve someone who will hold your hand and stand with you even when the whole world is against you. Someone who can bring out the best in you and make you excel in what you do. Someone who appreciates and encourages your hobbies and interests but also exposes you to new things in life. Someone you can turn to for anything and always receive an understanding smile. Someone who will love you for who you are.
It may seem impossible to find this Someone. But it’s not. There is someone out there who truly deserves you. Someone who understands the tiny things like, how much you hate tomatoes, how you hate doing the dishes, how you love singing, how you love hugs, how you’re crazy about a song or a show etc and still loves you and loves your flaws.
For, we all have flaws but dealing with someone else’s flaws with grace and maturity is what truly makes a relationship work.
Wars bleed through the peace,
Wounds exposed to anguished cries,
Love lost, so was life.
“No. Please stop.”
Please, please stop. We can never go back from this.
“I love you, a lot. But you know I can’t let this continue. This needs to stop”.
Please do not question my love for you. I really love you but how can I let you smear my dignity in the name of love?
“I can’t do this anymore. Please don’t ever come back. Don’t ever talk to me again”.
I can’t watch you leave but I can’t let you stay. You’ve left me no choice. If only you had asked for something else. If only your desires were pure.
“I am in pain. I’m hurting. Help me, please. Don’t ignore me. I’m sorry I didn’t give you what you wanted”.
I cut too deep. I can’t bear losing you. What do I do. I can’t give you what you want but losing you is hurting more. Please , I beg you, don’t shut me out .
“I thought you loved me.”
Somehow, amidst all my pain and misery, I failed to see how all you ever wanted to do, was ruin my life. I believed you loved me. Because I believed your lies.
To be continued…
A race against time.
Walking past one another.
Not a care for the world,
No love in sight.
Bound by our duties.
Bound by our desires.
Oblivious to the rotten cage
That constrains our freedom.
With broken shards put together,
We walk with our heads held high.
Trying to conform, trying to belong.
But inside, We’re barely holding on.
We laugh. We smile. We live our lives,
Devoid of the knowledge
Of our own bondage
Oblivious to our cage.
We let our lives be decided,
Our fates be set
Our roads be laid out for us
Caging our freedom again.
Doors may open, skies awaiting.
But somehow, rooted in place we stand.
For, despite the horizons ahead,
Bound by fear we stay.
And in this world of a million chains,
We fail to find our keys.
For, though we want to fly like birds,
Bound by our souls we remain.
Please do read the initial chapters in ‘Through the miles, With love‘.
“Why can’t you go to the same college that i am going to?”
“Why are you moving so far away from me?”
I remember the moment Greek God told me that he was moving away. The moment i realized that our relationship was soon going to be an LDR. The moment that i felt my heart drop and my stomach churn at the thought of it.
Letting someone you love go miles away from you isn’t easy. Especially when everyone believes and makes you believe that an LDR won’t work out. I remember crying into my pillow for days after he told me about his decision. And trust me, I tried so hard to make him change his mind. But he was rooted in place. He had to go because that was the best for him and for us.
But who cares about what’s best when it comes to love, right? After all, Love doesn’t always have to be rational. All I wanted was to be with my Greek God. All i wanted was to have him by my side always. And when he had told me that he was moving away, all I could think of was how he probably wanted to get rid of me.
It took very long for me to realize that I was wrong. Only after about a million texts and hundreds of calls did I realize that physical proximity isn’t the only means to support someone. I realized that, despite the miles separating us, the bond Greek God and I shared, only got stronger. And it was only and only because we trusted each other and were always honest and open about everything we do.
Everybody has flaws. We do too. But a relationship is all about working on those flaws together. It doesn’t matter if you’re right next to each other or are miles apart. Getting your feelings across is the only thing that matters. I’ve seen a lot of couples have a falling out because of misunderstandings and hurt egos or emotions. But that doesn’t always have to happen. Sit with each other. Talk it out. After all, You’re in love. And despite all the negativity surrounding love, true and pure love doesn’t hurt. Or rather, shouldn’t hurt. Love is something that fixes things. All you have to do is let it. Being vulnerable with someone is the hardest thing to do. But being vulnerable with the right person can lead to miracles and a lot of happiness. Because when you’re vulnerable with someone you love and someone who truly loves you, you are able to connect on a deeper level. A level where there’s mutual respect and a deep sense of appreciation for the other. A level that words can’t really define.
True love does exist in this world. I am aware that the stories i tell may seem so full of happiness and lacking any problems. But it’s not. We too have our fair share of problems. But it’s easier to deal with those problems together than let it come in between us. So if you’ve had bad experiences with love in the past, give it some time. Never settle for someone who doesn’t deserve you. Give it some time. Some day, you will find that one person who does care and it will all be worth it. On that day, Love will truly heal you.
Let the sun shine on.
Let the rainbows cast a hue.
Amidst rains again.